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Krsna speaks to Rukmini about His debt of love

“Feeling separation from Me, Radha and the gopis have given up Their lives.  Now I shall also give up My life for her.  You will see me in that condition, O Lokanath” (Text 126-127)  Prema-vilas by Srila Nityananda Das.

BG 9.29 "[...] But those who honor Me with devotion are in Me, and indeed I am in them."

"Sri Radha's love for Lord Krishna has no rival and no equal in this world.  It is the greatest love."  Sri Garga Samhita 6.17-38

Read more at the bottom excerpt from Sri Krishna Kathamrita Bindu issue No. 134"

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Lyrics for "Debt of Love"

I am not here,

but there with My mind,

I am so bound

‘cause of a promise of love.

I have a debt

since the day I left

“I will return” - I said this to them

They have given everything up for Me

their love is in Me

There isn’t any other way to repay

but to love ‘ em in the same way

I am their air

for this My heart weeps

I’m in big debt

to their love, the tears they shed,

I've gone away

I did not return,

they trust what I said just before I left

my words are their hope and reason to live

they breath for me

O Queen, how they keep alive gives me pain,

they want to see me once again

You asked before

Who’s this love for?

Tears melt my dreams

When I think of Her

She does not know anything else than Me

She lives for Me

To know this love I’ve to steal Her heart

to love with her love.

I’ll give up pearls and curls, one day
love tears is my debt to repay. 

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"With that prema they [gopis] have given up everything. [...] By their love, Krishna's promise was broken. His pormise is -'As someone approaches me I reciprocate accordingly' {Bg 4.11} Krishna never becomes indebted, He always repays his debts. But this promise of his was broken by the gopis, because the gopis do not want anything, how will he repay them?

[...] {Bhag. 10.32.22} "I have become completely indebted to you. I cannot pay you back, because you don't want anything. What shall I do?"

To pay back his debt he became Gaura, assuming the mood of Radharani is crying and feeling acute pangs of separation from Krishna. This is Gaura. [...] As Radharani is crying, crying, crying and drowning herself in this unfathomable ocean of separation, similarly Gaura is burning himself with the fire of separations from Krishna." by SGGS

Excerpted from Sri Krishna Kathamrita Bindu Issue No134

The Cowherd Boy is now a King

                                                                                           

CC Madhya Lila 1.56  Lord Caitanya Mahaprabhu used to sing this song [♪ ♫ ♪seita parana-natha♫ ♪ ♫] especially during the latter part of the day, and He would think, "Let Me take Krishna and go back to Vrindavana" This ecstasy was always filling His heart.

"It is there alone [in Vraja] that You attract us by wearing peacock feathers in Your turban and playing enchanting music on Your flute.  We can be saved only by seeing You in Vraja and not by any other kind of meditation or theoretical knowledge of the self." Commentary by Visvanath Cakravarti Thakur on Sarartha Darsini 82.48

After long separation from Vraja  Krishna resolves to meet the Brijvasis in Kurukshetra and He goes there from Dwarka with all His royal entourage......

Prayer from the Pillar

My Lion Lord,

I am here,

in this dark dream,

lost and overwhelmed

in a cloudy corner of Your realm;

down ~

beyond the Viraja river

on an expanse of water,

in a cluster of bubbles

exhaled from Your breath,

 further down ~

behind the seven coverings

caused by the false ego,

way down ~ 

within a drop of many drops,

dripped from Your pores

so far down ~

on one of the billion spheres

floating in space,

down here ~

entrapped in fears,

in a form of bleak desires

reduced to a dimmed sparkle

caught between the pliers of the mind,

an infinitesimal dot of existence,

where my soul cries

barely audible,

like words shouted in water.

I am here,

a fossil in a pillar

of million of lifetimes

please break it open with your claws

take me up

to sit on your lap

from where

 I can fearlessly look
  down

at the remains

of this stony heart.

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Winged Prayer

A prayer came on wings

for me,

all at once I could not see

the desert of my heart,

the saguaro,

that me

with its thorns

ceased to be;

spiritual awareness

lit up everything,

cupped hands

filled with mercy
from petals and leaves

spread its wings,

took off in the sky

and landed on my soul

in a shower of light.

Like a fulfilling kite,

that whisper

reached far 
and inside brought a whiff of inner delight,

the dimmed flame was fanned

to dance more brightly;

my mind stopped to think,

breathless emotions

in a speechless tide,

because I could perceive,
the wave was me,

stirred up and ruffled

by a love wind.

Some friends went on a pilgrimage to few temples in Madurai, India…

When they came back I was told that for all that day they had said a prayer for me wherever they went, while they offered flowers, leaves and ghee lamps to the Deities of each temple they toured. 

I thought back, reflecting on my feelings on that day, and recalled there was indeed a nuanced difference to how I felt. Those feelings then found their way out of my heart and into this short poem.

I feel it is important to share how powerful the prayers we say for others are, and how it is uplifting and inspiring for both those who utter the prayers and those for whom they pray, as a connection of the heart at once blossoms.

Krishna Delights Everyone's Eyes

SB 10.21.7 {Venu Gita} "[...] For those who have eyes, we think there is no greater object of vision."

Another gopis said : “Oh Sakhis! We intensely desire to relish Krishna’s dancing, singing and flute playing and to see all those beasts, deer, doves and birds assembled on the hill slopes who become stunned in bliss.”  Sarartha Darsini Pg230

“All the cranes and swans in the water are being enchanted by the melodious song of Krishna’s flute. They have approached and are worshiping the Supreme Personality of Godhead with full attention. Alas, they are closing their eyes and are becoming completely silent.” SB 10.35.11

"Seeing Him, the cows birds, bushes, creepers and trees all became ecstatic." SBB Vol. III 5.109 

"Seeing His beauty, people would curse Brahma, the creator of eyelids, and praise Indra who has a thousand eyes, and hanker for all their senses to become eyes." SBB Vol. III 5.110

ALLEGRETTO for Navadvip

CC Adi Lila 14.3 “I have thus described in brief the advent of Śrī Caitanya Mahāprabhu, who appeared as the son of mother Śacī, exactly as Kṛṣṇa appeared as the son of mother Yaśodā.”

Sri Navadvipa-dhama Mahatmya  “You should know that all the pastime places of Vrndavana are situated within this place. Make no distinction between Vrndavana and Navadvipa, nor between Gouranga and Krsna" -

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This poem was inspired by the poetry: "The holder of the flute now carries a danda"

by the medieval Gaudiya Vaishnava poet Balaram Das

ref. Sri Krishna Karnamrita  No9 - pg.34

There is continuity in the Lord’s pastimes and by the mercy of Lord Caitanya, His devotees simultaneously reside in Vraja and Navadvip absorbed in the Lord's pastimes within their hearts.  This poem unfolds this meditation.